My facebook post and ponderous thoughts made me think that I will develop this blog in order to chronicle my experiences as a teacher and to prove the Lord's faithfulness as I try to become a teacher. So, I will present this:
I am very scared of teaching. I would much rather do other things. I would much rather be a foreign ambassador. I would much rather be a political journalist. I would much rather be a waste management worker. I would much rather work at Target for the rest of my little being. I would much rather be an aupair in New York City (ahhh!! my life of fiction that I have loved.)
BUT! God has repeatedly told me (no, not verbally) that I need to continue in the teacher credential. ::gulp and sigh::
SO! I know that I will have cute and humorous anecdotal stories to relate from these days. I know that I will have days of depression. I know that I will have weary days and joyous days.
Really, I just don't want to be an average teacher. I don't want to be mediocre. I want to be EXCELLENT!!! I want to be creative and inspirational!!! These are the things that scare me because I don't think I can be that teacher. I am just average. I need to change so much. I have to organize myself and keep my ideas focused on one teaching goal. I go from one extreme of being fun with good activties to boring with few activties. ARGH!!!!
So, perhaps I start something here and now. This semester we will (hopefully!) have internet and then I can type up my blogs at a particular time each night. It will be a time of reflection and hope for the next dawn of the sun. (giggle-snort)
