Sunday, December 26, 2010

A Starbucks' Christmas Carol -- Part Two

Chapter 2

Right as the last bean was being vacuumed out of the last espresso machine two baristas came to Scrooge while he sat timing the close. Scrooge was not scheduled to work, but he lived according to the philosophy, “with great accountability comes great success,” and so he upheld his business standards.
The first barista to open his mouth was Bob Crachett, “Excuse me, Mr. Scrooge?”
“What?” came the reply.

“Excuse me, sir, but I have been getting many text messages and calls from the baristas and they wanted to know if we could…ahh…”

“Yes?”

“Close tomorrow.”

“CLOSE?!!! Tomorrow?!”

“Uhh, yes, sir. After all, tomorrow is Christmas.”

“Tell me, Bob, do you need this job?”

“Actually, sir, yes I do. I need it to feed my family.”

“Keep that in mind then, Bob Crachett. Don’t let these foolish baristas influence you. No! We shall be open tomorrow AS USUAL! I say HUMBUG to Christmas. There are many coffee drinkers who do not take a holiday for Christmas. Where will the Jewish customer go? The Kwanza-celebrating consumer? The dedicated business man?! We must be ready to serve them…and take their money.” With this, Scrooge looked down at his watch and documented the hour. The closing baristas had two minutes before they would be over their allotted time.

“But, Mr. Scrooge, sir, can we not even close early?”

“This is too much! Bob, why don’t you send out a mass text to all your barista-friends and ask them how they would like to spend their Christmas on the UNEMPLOYMENT LINE?”

At the thought of such an idea the barista who had entered the room with Bob began to cry.
“Please, Mr. Scrooge! Don’t do such a thing to us – right before Christmas!”

“Stop blubbering, Jennifer, or else I just might.”

Bob tried to regain control of the conversation, “Mr. Scrooge, I would like you to consider that while many of those people groups you mentioned will like the idea that we are open all day tomorrow, may I also have you consider that business will be slower. To use the electricity from the lights and heating may be wasteful and cut down on your profits.”

“Yes?”

“May I then propose opening later and closing sooner?”

“Bob, the coffee drinkers of this world expect coffee even on days given as holidays.”

“But sir, even the dedicated business men will not be able to deal with many of their national and international counterparts because it’s Christmas. Certainly, they won’t come in until the middle of the day. They would understand your shrewd business dealings in saving money if you opened with shorter hours in order to serve fewer people. Please, sir, all scheduled openers will come no later than 8am and all closers will leave no earlier than 6pm.”

“Bob Cratchett, you know we have worked many years together. You know how I value your skills and insights as a barista as well as a shift manager, but this may be the last bitter espresso shot you serve me. I don’t know that I can take anymore.”

“Sir?”

Scrooge looked down at his watch. Their time was up. He should hear no more water running, but only the running of their feet to sign off using the computer’s time clock. He did not hear their running feet and rose to discover the reason.
Turning to the anxious baristas before him Scrooge replied, “Send a text message to all those lazy baristas and tell them --- we will open at 7:30am and we will close at 7pm. No later and no earlier, Bob. You and your children will need to exercise patience in opening presents and eating Christmas dinner.”

“Yes, sir.”

“Thank you, sir.” squeaked Jennifer.

With that, Alexander Scrooge brushed past them in search of his two closing baristas.
“Yay, Bob! Thank you so much.”

“Well, it’s not actually what we were asking for, but we got somewhere and we still have our jobs.”
Jennifer grabbed her coat, purse, and gloves and put them on while walking to the door. “Well, I’m going home to celebrate the good news, merry Christmas!”

“Merry Christmas, Jennifer.” Slowly, Bob grabbed his hat and coat and walked toward the door. He looked back to see his manager reprimanding the closing baristas. They were two minutes late in their closing time. Bob had warned them about their speed, but they hadn’t listened. He took time to look into the eyes of Alexander Scrooge. What a puzzle of a man! Could there be any as hard-hearted as he? If his own nephew were dying, for a nephew was the only relative of whom he could boast, would Alex leave work to help him? Bob wasn’t sure and didn’t take too much longer in wondering; his phone began to buzz and it removed him from his solitary reverie.
He looked at the caller I.D. and smiled. It was his youngest son.
“Hello Tim, I am just leaving from talking with Mr. Scrooge, are you guys still arranging the Christmas baskets at church?”

“Well, we’re just working on the last ones. Mom wanted me to call you and let you know that you should get me from the church and she’ll take everyone else home early so they can get our Christmas Eve celebration ready.”

“All right, Tim, thank you. I will see you in about 10 minutes.”

“Love you, Dad.”

“Love you too, son. See you when I get there.”

The night was cold and clear. As Bob drove to the church he tried hard not to complain about his broken radiator and the lack of heat he was feeling as a result. Instead, he focused his attention on the stars shining above his head. They were magnificent.
“How amazing that the same God who created those stars also allowed Himself to be born as a baby in a stable.”
Rubbing his fingers together, Bob smiled and thanked the Lord for such a night and prayed for the Christmas Eves and Christmas days of his fellow co-workers and especially of his boss, Mr. Alexander Scrooge.

While Bob was lifting his prayers to the heavens, Alexander Scrooge was locking the doors of the Starbucks building behind him. Suddenly, Scrooge felt a tap on his shoulder and turned to see who it was.
“Hello, uncle!”

It was it was Ryan Reeves, Scrooge’s nephew. Every year he would come to Starbucks on Christmas Eve in order to invite his uncle to Christmas dinner.
“HUMBUG, boy! You shouldn’t bother to come here at such a late hour.”

“Well Uncle Alex I came to wish you a merry Christmas and to invite you to our Christmas celebration tomorrow.”

“Bah! All this talk about Christmas merriment, it’s a waste of time, money, and emotion. Foolish! Out of my way Ryan, you take your Christmas cheer and I will take my practicality.”

“Uncle! You cannot be so horribly sinister. While Christmas may never have put another dollar in my pocket I believe it has done me good and will do me good, and I should think it could do you some good too. Why not come to our dinner tomorrow night? Come enjoy your day with friends!”

“Friends?! Humbug! I would much rather see those who wish ‘merry Christmases’ stuffed with their own corn pudding, baked with their own glaze, and buried with their own holly sprig jabbed in their heart.”

“How entirely morbid and dreadful. I know you don’t mean it, but I also see that you are too stubborn to be changed in your thinking. Ahh well, I am glad I tried. I will miss you, uncle. Merry Christmas.”

“Humbug!”

Ryan left and so did all the warmth and happiness. He left Scrooge alone and without joy, but Scrooge did not care. He used no more thoughts on Ryan. He was more preoccupied with the night. Alex hated leaving the store on Christmas Eve. It always gave him an eerie feeling that something was not right. Perhaps it was because of the memories he had of his friends, Bob and Barb Marley. They opened Starbucks extra early on Christmas and so slept in the backroom to make sure they had a perfect close and a perfect open.
Scrooge had tried that some years before, but found it to be a great waste of his time and resources. He knew that Bob Cratchett was right; few customers came into Starbucks at such an early hour on Christmas.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

Jesus

Jesus
Name above all names.
Touches lepers.
Compassionate.
Longsuffering.
Patient.
Intercedes for His Chosen Ones.
Good Shepherd.
Emmanuel.
Lion – fierce and mighty.
Eternal King.
THE Word.
Creator.
Fullness of God.
Died for me.
Mighty Warrior.
Jealous.
Just.
Oh, Savior! How I long to see Your face. I want to touch Your hands and Your hair. Is it really white? Will it always be white?
Will I be able to look into Your fiery eyes?
What do You smell like? What do You feel like?
May I hug You, if ever my amazement at being in Your presence allows me?
Will You hug me first?
How does a voice of mighty rushing waters sound?
Can I touch Your feet? What if I tried to wash Your feet?
Do I get to kiss your cheek?
Will I be able to see the Holy Spirit?
I will never again be parted from Your presence. I will see Your face and know as I am already known. I will be changed. I will know and understand my position as a daughter, and if a daughter, then an heir.
You will present me blameless before the throne of God because You will have completed the work You have started in me.
Can’t it be soon, Lord? I want to be done sooner rather than later. How much refining do I require? How pure do You want me to be? Where will I go in Your living-temple? What does this mean? Will Your temple move around?
I would like to take a walk with You and just talk with You, do You do that?
Do I get to have time with You all to myself? (Is that being selfish?)
Unchanging.
Omnipotent.
Omnipresent.
Morning Star.
Alpha.
Omega.
Son of God.
Son of Man.
Prince of Peace.
You are God, the King eternal, perfect, holy, and just.
You will rule this world with a rod of iron.
All people will bow before You.
They will confess that You are Lord of all.

I love You, Lord.
Make me reflect Your light.

“The LORD, the LORD, a God merciful and gracious, slow to anger, and abounding in steadfast love and faithfulness, keeping steadfast love for thousands, forgiving iniquity and transgression and sin, but who will by no means clear the guilty, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children and the children’s children, to the third and the fourth generation.”
Exodus 34:6-7

“And Moses quickly bowed his head toward the earth and worshiped. And he said, ‘If now I have found favor in Your sight, O Lord, please let the Lord go in the midst of us, for it is a stiff-necked people, and pardon our iniquity and our sin, and take us for your inheritance.’”
Exodus 34:8-9

Woe is Me If It Wasn't for Thee

Woe is me! For the good I wish to do I cannot do, but the evil I do not want to do, I keep on doing.
Woe is me! For I have not chosen to tear off the sin that so easily entangles when I know that I have been redeemed by the Blood of the Lamb and His Spirit indwells me as His temple.
Woe is me! For I lack in thankfulness to my gracious King.
Woe is me! For I have not kept my eyes on the prize, but have allowed the cares of this world to suffocate me.
Woe is me! For I forgot that I was in a battle.

BUT GOD…

PRAISE BE TO GOD through Jesus Christ our Lord!

There is therefore now NO condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus.

I gasp at such a reality.
I bow my knees to my King.
Such an awesome reality is hard for me to believe.

How can it be that I should gain an interest in my Savior’s BLOOD?!

If He should mark my iniquities, I would be crushed by the weight of them.

BUT GOD…

He made Him who knew NO sin to BE sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.

How can this be?
For I am nothing more than a hard-hearted and arrogant girl who lives in a stained tent of flesh and lives in the midst of a people who dwell in stained tents of flesh.

BUT GOD…

I died and my life IS HIDDEN with Christ in God.

OH! The inexplicable gift given to those who are His elect ones!

I am far from innocent, but He has made me blameless.
I am far from lovely, but He has made me beautiful.
I am far from desirable, but He has chosen to love me.

Oh the deep, deep love of Jesus, vast unmeasured, boundless free pouring as a mighty ocean in its fullness over me. (Hallelujah! What a Savior!!)

“For you died and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ who IS OUR LIFE appears, then YOU ALSO will appear WITH HIM in glory. THEREFORE put to DEATH your members which are on the earth: fornication, uncleanness, passion, evil desire, and covetousness, which is idolatry. […] THEREFORE as the elect of God, holy and beloved, put on tender mercies, kindness, humility, meekness, longsuffering, bearing with one another, and forgiving one another, if anyone has a complaint against another; even as Christ forgave you, so you also must do.” (Colossians 3:3-5, 12-13)


“…even as Christ forgave you...” May I never lose the wonder of the cross.

Humble me and purify me, oh Lord, for you know the depths of my wickedness. Allow me to bring glory to your name on this earth and in the heavenly realms. Keep my heart as FLESH and refine me. Continue to conform me to the image of Your Son. Pry me away from myself. Reveal my sin to me so that I may put it to death. Thank You for your loving kindness and Your forgiveness, Lord who is God.

Let us FIGHT knowing that He has already conquered.

“For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this age, against spiritual hosts of wickedness in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand.” (Ephesians 6:12-13)

FREEDOM!!!!!! (from sin)

A Starbucks' Christmas Carol -- Part One

A Starbucks' Christmas Carol
Chapter One

To begin with, the Marleys were dead.
They were as dead as doornails.
They had been rotting in their graves for years.
Their obituaries were written in the Seattle Times.
The next time they moved would be the day of resurrection.
Their bodies lay decomposing in the earth, filled with worms and insects of all kinds.

To repeat: they were as dead as doornails.

Not that our story begins in the graves of Bob and Barb Marley, but it is an important fact to keep in mind as you read this tale.
Now to the point, our story begins in the little Ohio village of Montgomery where Alexander Scrooge existed, worked, and managed one of the busiest Starbucks stores in the world.

Day after day, night after night he toiled and labored to prepare the right beans for the customer. If one barista made the tiniest of mistakes concerning the weight of a Cappuccino, or the height of the foam in a caramel macchiato, or the number of vanilla pumps in a hot chocolate they would be thrown out of the store, never to work as a barista again.

Alexander Scrooge was a formidable task-master. He had been this way even in the early days of the company when his two friends, Bob and Barb Marley, also worked as shift leaders at the first Starbucks ever in Seattle, Washington. Bob, Barb, and Alex had put the beans under the grinder for far too long when they began to do the same thing to their baristas.

No longer did he care about the Fair Trade organizations promoted by Starbucks, no longer did he care about donating leftover food to the homeless shelter down the road, nor did he care any longer for the baristas under his management who were starving from a lack of hours and a lack of appropriately divided tips. He would always snap back at them, “I know how many pastries you have ’broken’ so you can eat them! Instead of eating you should be selling! Enough! I will divide the tips as I deem appropriate.”

Week after week, month after month, the Starbucks baristas worked under this maniacal man. Where else could they work? What other coffee shop would Scrooge allow to employ them if they left his service?

One day a young woman, unaware of the horrendous situation regarding Mr. Scrooge, came to inquire after donations for the food bank. She knew that other Starbucks’ shared leftover pastries. She was confused as to why Alex Scrooge was not participating.

Before the question left her lips, Scrooge was upon her. He could smell a request for a good deed from a mile away. “FOOD for the poor? MY PROFITS for your pathetic POOR?! Get out.”

“But, sir, you only throw the old pastries away. You cannot possibly have a need for them.”

“What?! WHAT did you say? We throw them away?! We have no NEED for them?!! Madam, if even ONE pastry is left on the shelf when we close, my baristas must buy them out of their own paychecks.”

“Mr. Scrooge! That is unethical!”

“Unethical, did you say? Indeed not. It is called, ‘motivation to sell.’ I rarely see a day when any pastries are left – to give to your ailing poor.”

“Perhaps the kind neighbors in this area take pity on the baristas and buy the pastries to keep their friends from financial harm.”

“HAH! Unlikely! Now, GET OUT!”

“But sir, what joy it would bring to the heart of someone who was not expecting anything on Christmas to receive a special gift from you. Won’t you help your fellow man?”

“You want me to help my fellow man?! Look around, look at what I am providing for my fellow man: a drink that keeps up his energy so he can be a slave to his duties at work.”

At this point, Scrooge, who had been polishing his espresso machine, walked around the counter and proceeded to escort the lady to the door.
“But people are dying of hunger!”

“Well, if they are going to die they better do it quickly and decrease our carbon footprint!”

With that, Alex Scrooge opened the door and threw the lady out. All barista eyes were on him, for those were the only eyes left in the café. No patron ever lingered in the café. They came to support their friends and then left as quickly as possible, never wanting to encounter Alexander Scrooge. If anyone DID stay it was only the wealthiest of business men who lingered. They were Scrooge’s type and he welcomed them gladly.

“What are you STARING at?! Get back to your duties! Are the pumps washed? Has the sanitizer water been changed? Where are the new carafes?! GET TO YOUR DUTIES!! Or else you’ll be buying the unused coffee as well!”

The baristas had been encouraged by the sight of such human caring and love as shown in the young woman. Many were beginning to doubt the purpose of their lives and their positions at Starbucks. How could they bear to go on? But, they were not willing to gamble the risk of choosing to quit.

Poetical Poems -- "My Neighbor"

Snoring One

I have a good neighbor - tho' I've never seen his face.
He seems quite punctual and's never out of place.
He snores real loud and breathes real soft;
If he didn't make this sound, I'd never doze off.

I have a good neighbor - tho' a snore-er may he be.
It's not at all annoying, but keeps me company.
For I know when I should be sleeping and I know when I should rise.
If my neighbor did cease his snoring; I would think he had met his demise.

Friday, November 26, 2010

Obedience in the Drudgery

There are many times when there is no illumination and no thrill, but just the daily round, the common task. Routine is God’s way of saving us between our times of inspiration. Do not expect God always to give you His thrilling minutes, but learn to live in the domain of drudgery by the power of God.

… We say that we do not expect God to carry us to heaven on flowery beds of ease, and yet we act as if we did! The tiniest detail in which I obey has all the omnipotent power of the grace of God behind it. If I do my duty, not for duty’s sake, but because I believe God is engineering my circumstances, then at the very point of my obedience the whole superb grace of God is mine through the Atonement.
2nd Peter 1:5 – Oswald Chambers

Caffeinated Calling

Espresso shots!


Disgusting.
BLEH!
I am beginning to sense the difference between a good espresso shot and a bad one even though I don’t care for either.

Aerated milk!

Delightful.
YUM!
I can make an up-to-standard “meringue” type foam after a good 3-5 second aeration (usually).

Vanilla Iced Coffees!
Wow!
I could guzzle that one down.
But I will not!
(I have discovered I prefer iced coffee.)

I enjoy making people smile.
I enjoy getting to know people.
I enjoy rushing around.
I enjoy having a long list of tasks to complete.
I enjoy being in a hectic (yet controlled) atmosphere.
(Starbucks DOES use some forms of energy!)

Who knew?!
ALTHOUGH!
I have messed up on SEVERAL occasions already.
For instance, I neglected to brew more coffee…and we ran out of Christmas blend AND Pike Place, at the same time!
(Sorry, Starbucks has no coffee...)
I still have NO idea what a Misto is.
I have asked and read multiple times, but the concept escapes my understanding. Is it just steamed milk in the cup rather than water? Do you put brewed coffee in there? Does it get shots? I canNOT remember.

Major Problem: "Regulars" assume I already know the details of their order and everything about Starbucks.

FALSE!

I know nothing.


I think I enjoy morning shifts.
Rising early is absolutely glorious! Your whole day is left to you; open and unadulterated.
I love getting things ready and running around because there’s a rush!
(Except when I fail and feel quite foolish.)

Hmm…that sounds similar to another job I had before…now what did I do?

Oh yeah!

I taught.
(Momentary side note: the Lord is good. Starbucks is making me pay more attention to details and procedures. The very things I need to work on as a teacher AND He is allowing me to learn these lessons in a fun environment rather than in the confines of a desk job…where I thought my fate would most likely lie.)

Although I doubted and questioned and lamented my choice after making it, at this moment I am thankful that I took the Starbucks job rather than the daycare part-time preschool teacher. I think I would have been bored.

How can a person watching 22 preschoolers get bored??

Because I am not THE teacher and I am not teaching SCHOOL subjects.

I don’t like aimlessly trying to entertain children and/or adults.

Uh-oh.

What if Starbucks becomes “aimlessly trying to entertain children and/or adults”?

It could.
(Tough ….grounds.)
hehehehehe

And yet, you always have something new to find out about the person.
(And, after your customers leave, you have the other baristas to get to know.)

Plus, in these first few months I will be STRENUOUSLY trying to figure out how to make the drinks and then I will try to add SPEED to my ability of remembering how to make the drinks and THEN I will have to perfect my ability to easily converse with the patrons WHILE making drinks with speedy efficiency.

I do like to multi-task.

Although, I am a HORRIBLE multi-tasker when you need me to LISTEN and complete the task.

(Yes, problem! Writing an order on a cup.)

But, SEE?!
THAT is where the Lord is training me and refining me in a different way: my ability to listen and remember.

I absolutely stink at it.
I always have.

If you show me a list of items visually that is most often better.

If you SPEAK a list of items to me, it seems to go in one ear and out the other.

UH-OH!

But the Lord is faithful.
I don’t think He let me get the Starbucks job so that I would fail miserably…every day…for the rest of my Starbucks’ career.
Good thing they give you time to learn.
(Their patience levels truly AMAZE me!!)

Humorous side story:
Customers are already laughing at me. A mother and daughter tried to conceal their laughter as I was rushing about, but I knew and told them it was okay. They lost it.

Another "regular" who I have made stand in line for 5 minutes and messed up on his drink multiple times has told me that my personality would be perfect for a sitcom... because I am so funny. I received it as a complement.

Ordinary Radical: Point of Application

So, how am I stepping out of my comfort zone?

Inspired by this book and the songs on the soundtrack of "Slumdog Millionaire," (watch the movie,) I am beginning to ask these questions:

Why has the Lord given me so much food I can dedicate a day to eating, while thanking Him?
Why has the Lord given me so much energy?
Why has the Lord given me more money than most households throughout the world?
Why has the Lord burdened my heart for children and mothers?
Why has the Lord allowed me to grow in my sorrow for souls?
Why has the Lord saved my soul?
Why has the Lord kept me single? (This is a stewardship that requires PURPOSEFUL use. I think most singles don’t purpose out how to “invest” this stewardship. How can we earn interest on this investment?!?)
Why has the Lord given me a brain that enjoys reading, researching, and writing?

I know it’s not just so I can use them and die.

What would be a reasonable conclusion then, acknowledging that He requires me to give up all for His name, that true religion is to serve orphans and widows, and knowing that I will be held accountable for how I used what He gave me?

I put forth: ordinary radicalism.

If I could have dinner with anyone in the past -- Biblical or non - I would dine with Stephen. (Although, Ruth IS beginning to climb the charts.)
I would like to be like Stephen. Not just because he was the first martyr, but because he was, ”full of faith and the Holy Spirit.” A man who worked “among the people.” A man whose wisdom and Spirit-led life could not be resisted. He was an ordinary radical.

And, truly, since Ruth is climbing the charts (I am reading Ruth right now,) she was an ordinary radical too. She didn't do what her sister-in-law did. She didn't do what her mother-in-law tried to persuade her to do. She was a virtuous, submissive, God-honoring woman who worked hard and so had a God-glorifying reputation through out the village.

So, how do I actually APPLY this concept?

Before reading the “Irresistable Revolution” book I purposed to make cookies for people at Starbucks and for my apartment neighbors, and to attach a note in hopes that it starts a way to get to know people.

Good thing I read the book because I almost backed out of giving the cookies to my neighbors (and co-workers).
I made the cookies, got them all “cutsie,” and then almost didn’t pass them out because I was afraid of how people would receive them and I didn’t want to intrude on my neighbors’ lives.

HELLO (idiot) – how else do you get to KNOW people? How else do you get to share the Gospel?!

Other Hypothetical Ways to Be an Ordinary Radical:
I am not going home for Christmas this year.
I don’t think Starbucks will be open.
I am thinking about serving in a homeless shelter.
I applied to sub in an urban school…we’ll see what the Lord would provide.
I am trying to get to know and develop relationships with people at church.
I have gone to many strangers’ homes, searching for a Bible study and desiring to get to know people.
(Remember, the Lord has brought me back to my nerdy days: I do NOT prefer socializing, particularly with strangers. Unfortunately, here in Ohio the only non-stranger is my father.)
I am seeking to research more in order to improve my mind.

Purpose:
Start using what the Lord has given me, (time, money, health, energy, love for children, etc.) and see what He does and how He directs.

In conclusion:
Be an ordinary radical right NOW. Right where you are!

How can we all do this in PRACTICAL ways?

Do you know your family? GET TO KNOW THEM!
Do you know your neighbors?! GET TO KNOW THEM!
Do you KNOW people in your church? GET TO KNOW THEM!!
Do you know your co-workers? GET TO KNOW THEM!!
Do you know your classmates? GET TO KNOW THEM!
Do you know geography? Politics? History? Different cultures? Philosophy? Literature?
GET TO KNOW THEM!!!!!!!!!!

Don’t just ASSUME things about people because they are “liberal” or “dress a certain way” or speak in a girlish manner… GET TO KNOW THEM so you can serve them. So you can glorify God in the marketplace based on your good works and faithfulness to the name and calling of our Lord, (die to yourself and love your enemies).

Live as an ordinary RADICAL.

Be a discipling-evangelist, (i.e. a servant).

Ordinary Radical: Progressive Thoughts

I have been reading a lot these days, mainly because I have few friends, no leadership in ministry, and I am not teaching.
The Lord seems to be bringing me back to the days of my nerdy youth. I was homeschooled and so, I had few friends, ministry on Sunday, and I wasn’t teaching (or doing schoolwork consistently) back then either.
I have forgotten how much I love learning! My goodness! There Is SO much out there! What are we doing watching stupid movies?!
(heh…I just watched “Plans, Trains, and Automobiles” with my dad the other night. FUNNY and ENJOYABLE stuff!!!)

One of the books I am reading is called, “Irresistible Revolution.” Considering my conservative church heritage, this could be a very dangerous and controversial book to be reading. I just finished chapter four this afternoon. I don’t agree with all he is saying, but he raises a good point.

His point is that Christians need to actually live like Jesus. (I find it humorous: this DOES connect to my “conservative church background,” – it connects to living “on the line.” It’s called being biblical, i.e. living by FAITH. Pretty crazy, and yet it’s just ordinary radicalism.)

A couple Sundays ago my new pastor, Pastor Wayne, preached on Luke 9:23-26. This was the absolute BEST sermon I have heard him preach since I came 5 Sundays ago. He knows his congregation so incredibly well and this AMAZES me. He molds his sermons according to their personality and their needs. He chose to preach on the floor, rather than over the communion because he wanted to acknowledge that he had not reached perfection in this area of picking up his cross and dying to himself. What made his sermon so great (and what gives its appearance a purpose in this post,) is that he bluntly told his congregation to step up and OBEY the Bible. He told them that if they were NOT giving up what they had been working for, or what they thought they deserved, then they should check their souls.

This message seems to be repeated to me.

The Lord seems to repeat themes a lot.

What themes has He been recently communicating?:

--He is God, and I am not. (Job, Psalms, Isaiah, Ruth, church, current life experiences)
--He is my Guide and the One who plans my steps. (Job, Psalms, Isaiah, Ruth, church, Genesis, Exodus…current life experience(s))
--He is GOOD and FAITHFUL (Psalms, Isaiah, Ruth, current life experiences)
--Bottom line: I need to stop desiring control and I need to DIE.

How does this connect to “Irresistable Revolution”?

I just wonder WHAT the Lord is doing.

I have always WANTED to be a radical. (As I have written before,) I have always wanted to start a revolution. For years He has been pounding it in my head that I just need to be faithful where I am at and get used to the idea that I am just a common person.

Two years ago, He worked through my earthly father to bring me back home and to tell me, “You cannot be a career missionary.” Excuse me? What have I been planning my single life for?? This was (and occasionally resurfaces as) a crushing disturbance to my planned existence.

Last year (about this time,) He “gave” me K. P. Yohannan’s book, “Revolution in World Missions,” telling me: YOU MUST STAY HERE, (in your own country, in your own community – not to Uganda, not to the homeless shelters.) I FOUGHT while reading that book. How could He be saying such things?

In this middle of this year, I began to understand and love the ministry in my Jerusalem. I was growing in contentment and was willing to give up my plans/hopes because I saw that His plans are GOOD.

NOW He moved me to Ohio where there is a church that supports more than 30 missionaries, gives missionaries time to give updates during every church service, has short term missions trips throughout the year, looks for other people to send, knows about the persecuted church, has members from different countries and cultural backgrounds, and reads books (not this one) about being radical for Jesus.

What?!

Even my DAD (earthly father) has been telling people in the church that I have always wanted to be a missionary and would love to go on missions trips, etc, etc. Uuuhh…???

Now this radical book is seen by my eyes in the library.

I thought the Lord was trying to change my heart away from radicalism, away from other countries??? (I am beginning to see that perhaps He didn't want to take that away, in fact that IS the personality He gave me. Perhaps He just wanted to chisel and mold me into a USABLE radical.Oooh HO! But am I really a "radical"? I guess my life will tell.)

The book's main idea is NOT: leave the US and serve the poor in other countries.

Its main idea (so far) is: SERVE PEOPLE! Get out of your box (the building you meet in on Sundays,) and get to know the needs of those around you. (I know I have said that before.)

So, there’s the purpose of this post.

GET OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE! (in order to serve people.)

**When I finish the book, I will let you know my concluding thoughts: disagreements/agreements.**
One disagreement I see already is his definition of the church and his lack (so far) in serving in his local body in comparison to his activism in the community. What about discipleship/evangelism inside the walls of the church?

Friday, November 12, 2010

REJOICE! ALL He Gives is GRACE!

How selfish I am!
Ungrateful.
Encased in my own, little, opaque shell.

In these last few days the Lord has allowed more of the "veil" to be removed from my eyes. He has shown me my sin and He is enabling me to repent.

After posting my little ditties the other day, I really did go outside for a jog.
Thinking and writing out those thoughts helped me to identify where I was in sin, where I needed to repent, and the love of the Lord.

PRAISE THE LORD!

(With no sarcasm,) I thank Him for sunshine, water, James Brown, a working body, good theology, scientific understanding, His resurrection, my salvation, and MaryMary.

I started my jog with James Brown’s “Get Up Offa That Thing.” Heading towards the water, I had the beautiful (65*) sun shining down on me, and thoughts of the Lord were flooding my mind.

“Get up offa that thing and shake and you’ll feel better.” (GOOD STUFF!)

Who gave me this ability?!
I was filled with praise for Him.

After jogging through a couple other songs I came to MaryMary’s song. Not that it's a theologically STRONG song, but the main jist is that while you have the ability -- move and praise the Lord! The song says, "'Don't you know you'" (others reply,) "'Got the victory!'" And they go back and forth calling these phrases to each other.

PRAISE THE LORD!!!

HE IS ALIVE! He has given me salvation! He has given me this day!! Whoohoo!! [I began to jog/walk/groove. Perhaps a bit too energetically for these mid-westerners, but I was filled with the praises of Jesus! (Don’t worry…I wasn’t really cra-ZY.)]

But it suddenly dawned upon me, the Son evaporates the fog.

I might feel as if my existence is currently surrounded by a thick blanket of fog, but WHO CARES?!

What am I WHINING about?!
People are dying of cancer, hunger, various other diseases, abuse, are being persecuted, are despairing of life...and I am whining because I want to KNOW IT ALL?!

Who is my Guide?!
Psalm 48
“GREAT is the Lord and GREATLY to be PRAISED…As we have heard, so we have seen…According to Your name, O God, so is Your praise to the ends of the earth; Your right hand is FULL of righteousness. […] For THIS is GOD, OUR God forever and ever; HE will be OUR guide EVEN to DEATH.”

What has my Guide given to me?
2nd Peter 1:3, “as His divine power has given to us ALL things that pertain to life and godliness.”
Philippians 4:19, “and my God shall SUPPLY all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus.”
(Along with: Ephesians 1, 1st Thessalonians 4,2nd Corinthians 5 AND 15, Romans 8, Hebrews 10-12, et. al.)

When I question and worry I am saying that’s not good enough. I am saying He hasn’t given enough. I am saying His plans aren’t wise enough.

Atrocious, despicable, disgusting, rebellious, SIN.

Indeed, He has given me TODAY.

TODAY He has given me His breath, His grace, His Son, the hope of heaven, a body that can walk/jog/skip/jump/dance around the lake, He has allowed me to live next to a LAKE!!!!
He has provided rain when my soul needed refreshing. He has provided friends when I felt alone. He has provided laughter so I can release joy.

He is RISEN.
Wow.

He IS risen.
Hallelujah.

HE is risen.
Amazing.

The Great God of the Universe chose to die. This same God rose from the dead on the third day after being buried. This SAME One who created LIFE and then subjected Himself to DEATH has chosen me as a vessel for His glory!!!!! (When He could have used me as a vessel for His wrath.)


This humbled me.

What a miniscule and un-mattering creature I am.

Do I protest against the great God?
Do I want to know what tomorrow will bring so I can plan my days?

Haughty arrogance.

Oh praise the Lord that would allow Himself to be KNOWN by His creatures!
Praise the Lord who disciplines His children!
Praise the Lord who cannot be discovered unless He reveals Himself.
Praise God who cannot be destroyed by man.
Praise the Lord whose voices is so powerful it brings the mountains and trees to destruction!
Praise the Lord who has chosen to reveal His grace, patience, mercy, longsuffering to us.
Praise the Lord who is just, who is holy, who does execute wrath on His enemies.

His ways are above our ways and past our finding out.

Praise Him for allowing me to go out on that jog and realize some of these things. (May I now attack my sin with more vigor as I CAPTURE those sinful thoughts and make them obedient to Jesus.)

James 4
"Come now, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to such and such a city, spend a year there, buy and sell, and make a profit'; whereas you do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a VAPOR that appears for a little time and then VANISHES AWAY."

Come sinners! REJOICE - setting our eyes on JESUS, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the JOY set before Him, ENDURED the cross, despising the shame, and now sits at the right hand of the throne of God.

Can I get an AMEN?!
Hallelujah!

God's Gracious Gift

One of my FAVORITE places is Edmonds Beach,WA. I love the sound of the waves slapping against the rocks, I love the ferries floating towards the opposite shore, green trees on the hills, blue mountains in the background, and the gorgeous oranges and reds of the setting sun.

Washington rain is not always welcomed, but you can sing in it. And it makes things grow and it gives us our various shades of lively greens and blues.

While living in California I was not separate from the water. How, you ask? For several reasons:

First, the sun is WONDERFUL.
Second, the Pacific Ocean WITH the sun is just minutes away.
Third, California has a (though brief) rainy season. (My Western Washington friends and I would always have a “first rain dance” to celebrate its coming.)
Fourth, my parents’ homeland was stationed in Washington, thereby giving me PLENTY of access to water on each homecoming.

Now that the Lord has stationed me in Ohio…I am away from the water. Without realizing it, I had been pining for the water.

My first few days here the clouds were out, but they held no rain. I began to be frustrated with them. I had no idea why I was frustrated. Everything around me just looked dry and dusty. The red and orange leaves were nice, but they weren’t VIBRANT. That is when I realized the truth of the Proverb, "Whoever falsely boasts of giving is like clouds and wind without rain." (25:14) No good.

When the pounding rains and thunderings of the tornado blew through I was delighted! (I suppose I could liken my reaction to the “first rain” dances in California.) With the coming of that rain exploded shades of green and blue. The rain made the reds POP out and made the oranges seem wonderfully lively.

Today, it looks like a wonderful California sky. The sun is out, it’s 69*, and there's not a cloud in the sky.

When I went for a walk around the lake after the storm, I was puzzled as to why I was so intrigued by the lake. I just wanted to stand by it, look in it, touch it, and listen to the “waves” lap up onto the rocks.

After running and leaping around the lake for a bit, and snapping pictures as I could, I realized why I have such a love for this lake: I need water.

And GUESS WHAT GUYS?!?!!

The Lord knew it!

Before I knew my need, the Lord had already planned to meet it. He met it through the lake, through the heavy rain of the tornado, and through the beautifully cloudless days He has given.

How delightful.

Romans 5:8, "BUT GOD demonstrates His own love toward us in that while we were still sinners Christ died for us."
[Before we knew our need -- He met it. Praise Him for His mighty acts! Praise Him according to His excellent greatness!!! Let everything that has breath PRAISE THE LORD!! (Psalm 150)]

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

I Take Content...What He has Sent(?)

Guys, the Lord IS good, but I am so confused.

Last year, about this time, Andy Bowers was saying that as he looked into the future he didn’t know what to expect and he didn’t know how the Lord was going to provide and so he was getting worried, but knew that he just needed to choose to trust the Lord (ie “live on unseen things”).
When I heard him say those words I laughed within myself and said, “Well, that’s not MY ‘unseen thing.’ I know what’s happening in MY next year. I can see my whole life stretching out before me: Marysville, elementary school teacher, living with my parents.”

Foolish.

It seems that the Lord would have me think that thought in order to humble me.
To remind me that HE is God, not me.
To remind me that I have NO idea what will happen in the next minute, let alone all the way to the end of my days.
(James 4:13-16) I boasted in my arrogance and, “all such boasting is evil.”

Acknowledging this, I PRAISE the LORD that He is the good Father who chastens His children because He loves them and wants/plans/will conform them to the image of His Son.

These moving days are tougher than I expected them to be. I decided to come early because this was a way to live “on the line.” I wanted to choose to do the hard things. (I have been tuning in to the Genesis sermons. I am feeling more akin to Abraham nowadays. I am thankful to be able to read of his choices to TRUST as well as his times of failure.)

Right now I have absolutely NO idea what the future holds.
Last year I thought I could see my life-road stretching out in front of me.
Now it would seem that all I can see is…fog.

When I have driven in the fog I tend to want to get out of it as quickly as possible, especially when I am driving in an unknown place. I prefer to see what’s coming up ahead of me. I want to be able to plan and react in plenty of time.

I don’t like this fog either and I would like to speed up these processes.

Last week I listened to Sean's sermon from two Sundays ago, (I paraphrase):
“When you are discouraged, when it seems like you have been trusting God, but you aren’t seeing anything, and now it has been…three days…”

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!

I had a good chuckle on that one. (Wish I could have been present to laugh.) Because that is My reaction! I have only been here for 20 days! (Abraham had to wait 25 YEARS to see his promised son and then he never even SAW the nations or the land come into their possession with the promise.)

And, weak one that I am, I have already asked the Lord to just end it all and take me to heaven. (hahaha I was being slightly humorous with the Lord. He knows me.)

He reminds me: this is called life.

It stinks that it is turning out to be so hard for me to be content in this easy situation because that means: I STINK! (sin, sin, sinner)

APPARENTLY, my “trust bucket” is thimble-sized. (Don’t worry; He’s pulling on it…banging on it, pounding [me] it.) He will COMPLETE the work He has started! (In HIS time.)

I am reminded of Elisabeth Elliot’s words in her book, “Keep a Quiet Heart,”

“A quiet heart is content with what God gives. It is enough. ALL is grace. My lot entails my willing acceptance of my portion.” (19)

“[Jesus] taught us to work and watch but never to worry, to do gladly whatever we are given to do, and to leave all else with God.” (18)

The secret is Christ in me, not me in a different set of circumstances.” (20)

WAITING - because He is worthy, faithful, and true

As I have been reading the Scriptures the Lord has been POPPING the word “wait” out at me. WAIT on the Lord and He will renew your strength. (Isaiah 40) WAIT on the Lord for He is good and will act. (Psalm 27:14) WAIT and HOPE in the Lord. (Psalms in general, Genesis, Corinthians, 1st Peter…)

Peeps, I don’t like to wait.

This week I have been feeling a SURGE of restlessness well within me. Yesterday I tried to dance it out and I couldn’t groove fast enough.
Today I will go out for a jog to see if I can run it out, but I don’t know that that will be good enough.

I am tired of waiting!!

I want to go out and DO.

I want to go out and SERVE.

Where? Who? How? When? What?

Why not NOW?!

In the earlier half of this year the Lord brought a story to my mind that is continuing to ring true. At the time I wanted to GO OUT to another country and be a missionary. The Lord was convicting me with the idea that I needed to stay and be faithful here and be a discipling-evangelist in Washington.

During these conversations with the Lord I realized that I am just like one of my first grade students. In my mind I could see an illustration of how the Lord must see me.

Taking from Isaiah 6 and that our prayers come before His holy throne, I saw myself just bouncing in front of Him. Jumping here, dashing there, all the while I am asking Him, “where do you want me to go?! Where? Where? Should I go here? Should I go there? Oh tell me!! Please! Please! I am ready! I am ready to go! Where? Where?!” (bounce, bounce, bounce)

While I am running and jumping and talking the Lord (sitting on His throne, of course,) is calling out softly to me, “Alicia! Alicia!” But, I am so busy asking Him what to do; I don’t hear His gentle voice.

Suddenly He shouts, “ALICIA!” This I hear and turn to face Him, while I continue to bounce.
“Yes, Lord?”
“Stop bouncing.”
I plant my feet on the ground, but my arms have difficulty remaining at my side. He looks at me and I press my arms to my side.
“Alicia, you need to sit down.”
“What?” I am crushed. I thought He wanted us all to GO OUT.
“Alicia, you need to sit down and wait.”
I begin to sit down, “But, Lord, how long? When can I go?”
“Sit and wait. I will tell you.”
I sit down and remain still for a length of time, but then I feel the need to move. My foot flies out and my arms twitch. The Lord looks at me again. I regain my self-control.

A length of time passes and finally I hear my name, “Alicia?!”
I spring up, ready for action, “Yes Lord!! I am here! I am ready! Where do you want me to go? Where?” Once again, I am filled with excitement.
“Alicia!”
No response.
“ALICIA!!”
I turn to face Him and contain myself.
“You need to go over there and take a seat.”
My shoulders droop. I can’t believe what He is telling me. I have to go sit on a line AGAIN? He knows that I am sad, but He also knows why He is telling me to sit.

As I walk to take my place I ask, “But, Lord, I sat still. Why can’t I go OUT yet?”
“You need to learn to wait and be still. You need to learn that I AM GOD and you are NOT. Be still and know that I AM GOD.”

So, here I sit. Waiting, waiting. Hoping that I will respond correctly and learn quickly.

Be still. He is God.

“I will be still whatever He does, and follow where He guideth. He is my God, though dark my road. He holds me that I shall not fall, wherefore to Him I leave it all. Whatever God ordains is right, He never will deceive me. I know He will not leave me. My Father’s care is round me there, and so to Him I leave it all.”

Psalm 31:14-24, “But as for me, I trust in You, O Lord; I say, ‘You are my God.’ My times are in Your hand. Oh how great is Your goodness, which You have laid up for those who fear You, which You have prepared for those who trust in You in the presence of the sons of men. You shall hide them in the secret place of Your presence from the plots of man; You shall keep them secretly in a pavilion from the strife of tongues. Blessed be the Lord for He has shown me His marvelous kindness in a strong city! For I said in my haste, ‘I am cut off from Your eyes’; nevertheless You heard the voice of my supplications when I cried out to You. Oh love the Lord all you His saints! For the Lord preserves the faithful and fully repays the proud person. Be of good courage, and He shall strengthen your heart, all you who hope in the Lord.”

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Peeling Away

I guess I am like an ogre – I have many layers.

In this process of sanctification, I see that I have many layers needing to be peeled away. The Lord will continue to peel away my sin through various means. I have peeled away to Ohio and I look forward to seeing how the Guide of my life will change me in the coming months. I DOUBTED His being able to change me in Washington. I FOUGHT returning to Washington. I thought I would be friendless, stuck in my sin, and destined to a life of spinster living in her father’s home while knitting the household some red socks for winter. (I am not joking. I wrote out a list of about 16 fears I had in coming back to Washington from California. I looked back occasionally, sometimes they were lived out, but overall God provided for my needs and I had no need to fear.)
God is GOOD! He knows my sin and He wants to conform me to the image of His Son!! He will NOT allow me to linger in my sin and He will NOT forsake me. I have seen His faithfulness and His goodness in the land of the living and so I am eager and willing to place my faith in Him to do the same NOW. He does not forsake His sheep! I am living and so He still has a purpose for my life! He used me in Washington (I pray), and He will be faithful to put me to use in Ohio.

Some things that I have contemplated and have been contemplating while making my decision about going early to Ohio or not:
Do Hard Things by the McDowell brothers. Yes, this book is for teenagers, but I got some good stuff from it.

DO HARD THINGS:--Outside your comfort zone,
--That go beyond what is expected or required,
--That are too big for you to do alone,
--That don’t pay off immediately
--That go against the crowd.
Ohio seemed to fit there.

“On the Line” – what am I willing to put on the line? What do I have to put on the line? What am I willing to risk, by faith, not knowing for sure what the Lord will do in response? – Ohio sounded good.

Did I leave “too early”? I guess that was part of the risk.
Does God direct our steps even when man plans the way of his heart?
I guess that was the part of stepping out in faith.

I have now learned to love and lean on the reality that God is sovereign. He does direct our steps and He has planned our ways. All things work for His glory and for our good!! That includes this move. That includes choosing to move and choosing to keep myself under my dad’s direct authority.
I don’t know if it was “too early,” but since He [my Heavenly Father] didn’t prevent me from going, I am going to say that it was right on His time. I will seek His goodness in the land of the living! (Psalm 27:13-14)



(2nd Corinthians 4)

 BECAUSE our inner man is being renewed day by day.
 BECAUSE our light and momentary affliction works for us an eternal weight of glory.
 BECAUSE God is preparing us a house that is eternal, in the heavens.
 BECAUSE we will be further clothed as mortality is swallowed up.
 BECAUSE God is preparing us to receive these glories; (needed: trials).
 BECAUSE we have the Spirit as a guarantee; (not required – His goodness bestowed upon us).
 BECAUSE we are confident as we walk by faith and not by sight,
THEREFORE, we make it our aim, whether present or absent, [from the Lord] to be well pleasing to Him.” 2nd Corinthians 5:9

So, as I tour around Ohio and try to figure out why God brought Him here (which, perhaps I will never know,) I will endeavor to be faithful to Him. He has given us these promises. He gave up Himself and He asks that we follow Him. He asks that we lay ourselves down as a sacrifice – holy and pleasing to Him.

…PLEASING to Him…

What does that mean, again?

“Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, in everything give thanks, for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.”
“Walk worthy of the calling with which you have been called – with all lowliness and gentleness, with longsuffering, bearing with one another in love.”

Isaiah 26:3, “You will keep Him in perfect peace, whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You.”

At Grace, the Lord taught me the importance of the Body. He taught me what it is to truly love the Body. He used all my former experiences and learnings and understandings and seemed to be balancing me and chiseling me.

Now, I am entering into a new fellowship to apply what I have learned. The Lord has brought great teaching through Grace and has used it to peel away my sin – layer, by disgusting layer. Now, I have come to FBC, Ohio. May I be faithful here! I am excited to see what Faith (haha) will teach me -- what layers it will peel away.

Please pray:
That I would find a job soon and that this would be the place where God has the right people to whom I can minister appropriately. (Nice money flow would be a good prayer request as well.)

That my dad and I would bond during this “alone time.”
[The Lord has so changed my attitude toward my dad. (CRAZY!) I see that he is an honorable man who is trying (with all diligence and perseverance) to walk worthy of his Lord. My dad wants to be able to stand before God blameless and holy. He wants to be held as a good steward of his family. –PRAISE THE LORD!]

That I would find where I should be ministering in the church – that my eyes would see the needs of the souls and take action.

That I would find some friends.

That I would find some older women…and bond quickly. (Some may have found me already.)

My Former Days (I found old pictures!)







I did not realize how strange I TRULY was back in my college days. I recently found my MySpace account (that I have not accessed in YEARS) and saw these on there. I also found HUMOROUS writings up there! I have NO idea how I had any friends. I now understand why I didn't graduate with my "MRS" degree. (hahahahahahaha!!!)
Here are a few writing "exerpts":

"I am evil. Very, very evil because I am not doing my homework. But, my friends who don't actually exist, I am BORED! I don't want to write the paper anymore. I don't want to memorize anymore history facts and...well, I am not bored with my Bible class, but I just don't want to sit down and concentrate. I want to use my creative thinking parts. :0) My Bible class is actually very interesting. We are going from Romans to Revelation. My teacher is Dr. Doug Bookman. Have you all heard of him? He is GOOD. He is funny! He often gets off the subject, but he has soo many good tidbits in his rabbit trails that they are easily forgiven. He even starts the evening class earlier and ends it early so we can go watch home basketball games. He is a good guy. "


"So, I have decided that I would now devote this time to give a little commercial concerning what I like to call Splendiferously Crazy Unattached Mujeres. YES!! Isn't it beautiful? It is apart of the larger group people call the Spinster Sister Society. hehehe SCUM has come about because the Master's College delights in highlighting the "need" and the many opportunities at college to find one's spouse. Pooh pooh! If we are currently single, as the majority of us at college are, why should we be focusing on marriage and how to be godly in preparation for marriage?!! My opinion is that we should have more of a focus on how to be a godly SINGLE person now. We can use our singleness for God's glory. To be single is a gift that many are given for a temporary time. Are we going to sit on this gift and do nothing with it except prepare for marriage (which may not come)? I hope not! Thus, SCUM has come about. #1) To take a stand against the Master's desire for marriage and #2) to encourage each other (mujeres...women) in being single and using our time wisely (ie for the Lord.) We are not a group that is against marriage (no no!!) we are a society that is against an overwhelming focus and chasing after becoming "attached." :0) I am trying to write some short stories about SCUM. We have membership cards. Please, look for the membership card on the "more pics." I will try and post them. Fare thee well!"

"So, I have come back to school. That interesting institution that people flock to attend. Why? I ask again, why do we want to attend colleges and universities? Those who have progressed in the years of their life say it is because with a(n) "higher education" you can achieve amazing goals. Muhahaha I think not. There have been many amazingly successful people out there who have not attended university. What is the meaning of successful anyways? Hmmm... I mean really...when you graduate from university someone hands you a piece of PAPER that says you are qualified. How have we allowed pieces of PAPER to tell us whether or not someone is qualified for something? I do not know. Well, perhaps I do, because the person who gives us that piece of paper (degree) has also been given several pieces of paper that signify HE/SHE is qualified to tell us we are qualified. Have we bought into a cultural flop? I would love to rebel against this institution, but no. I cannot because I am too weak. Ahh! Well, that and I think the Lord wants me to get an education so I can better serve the people around me. :0)"

"Have you ever wonderedwhat we would do without libraries? I love my library system. So beautiful is it! Comfy, cushy chairs are dotted throughout the rather spacious building. My library system offers WIFI services which I just used for the first time. Do you get what I am saying? The library is a BEAUTIFUL thing. I mean, what other places offer you an array of books, movies, music, and research assistants? A library is a place where you can escape from the real world and you dont have to pay a fee before you leave the building. Praise the Lord for the creation (by Benjamin Franklin, wasnt it?) of libraries!"

ABCs of Greeting Newcomers


This is an original composition. Enjoy.

A – Accept that you may become their friend.

B – Believe that what they are saying is true.

C – Confess that you forgot their name.

D – Don’t let them leave without being greeted.

E – Eye-to-eye contact is great.

F – Firmly shake their hand.

G – Get their email, phone number, or something.

H – Highlight their interests.

I – Invite them to join you –in church, on another day, in another church meeting, etc.

J – Jostle their funny bones.

K – Keep eye-to-eye contact.

L – Laugh with them…not at them…(yet).

M – Match them up with other potential friends and/or contacts.

N – Never day dream while the new person is speaking to you.

O – Offer to show them around the church and/or the town.

P – Pause; see what they would like to say.

Q – Questions: Family, Occupation, Recreation, Dreams

R – Remember the information you have been asking them about; particularly their name.

S – Smile at them and with them.

T – Take them where their needs can be met.

U – Uphold God’s Word, the fellowship of the Body, and Jesus.

V – Value them as a potential friend.

W – Walk up to them first.

X – Xenophobia*; don’t fall prey to its devices!

Y – Yak in moderation.

Z – Zealously befriend one another; remembering we represent Christ.

*"Xenophobia" is the fear of foreigners -- people who are different from you.

Something Old..."Journey to London"



It was my final journey from the halls of Capernwray Bible School. After my German friend dropped me at the Carnforth train station, I took the train to Manchester. In Manchester I found (praise the Lord!) the coach station.

The National Express coach was taking me from Manchester to London. This was to be a 4 hour 30 minute drive down. I was expecting my own seat, time to read, think, and plan out my day and a half in London. The weather outside was HOT...well, for England. It was probably about 70/75 (Farenheit).

After putting my suitcase under the bus, I step aboard. I looked around and saw that I would not be in my own seat, but would have to share with a (GASP!) stranger.

After realizing this, I quickly glanced around the bus, looking for a smiling face.

A hairy man with his top shirt buttons unbuttoned smiled...he was too nice.

I continued to walk deeper into the bowels of the bus. With each step my choices were running out. I had to make my seat decision...and soon. In the very last seat, next to the toilet, sat a man. He smiled and waved.

I tried to look away, but I smiled instead.
I had no where else to go.
I was at the back of the bus.
If I turned around now he would know I was running away from him.

Bravely, I gathered up my bag and took the seat almost next to him. (It was a 3 seater, he sat next to the window, then there was an open seat, then I sat in the seat next to the toilet. That is what you get for 4 quid my friends! Value for your money on National Express!)

I sat down. The man (Robert) and I began to talk. He was not clean shaven, but looked very friendly. He wore a plan t-shirt and dark sweat pants. As we started talking I learned that his parents were both dying of different cancers and other illnesses and that he was living in Burnley, England. His parents had immigrated from Jamaica and he had grown up in London.

At the time of our meeting he was 45 years old. He was living in Burnley because he owed drug dealers in London thousands of pounds and they wanted to kill him since he couldn't pay.

I also found out that he needed injections to help him with his schizophrenia and depression.

He said that he belonged to the Church of England, but also liked to know what his horoscope was saying for the day.

He liked to talk.

For awhile I was glad that he could keep up the conversation...no awkward silences.

Some minutes later we were joined by another gentleman of the name of Omu. At the time, he was a lawyer from Nigeria, taking his exams in order to be a lawyer/solicitor (British term) in England. He told me that his name means "my God has come." ...He was the last child and only boy after 3 girls. Needless to say, his dad was very happy to have a son.

He really liked to talk as well.
He knew facts about all sorts of subjects.
He was journeying to meet his girlfriend in London and then they were going to Paris.

He laughed so loud and so wonderfully, it was great!

During our bus ride, the children in front of us kept coming to use the toilet. Omu had a huge bag and had to move it every time they wanted the door to be opened. We would spot them coming, Omu would squish closer to me so his bag could get out of the way, and then I had to get closer to Robert. While they were in the toilet, Omu would leave his bag in front of the door. There was one bathroom trip when he forgot about his bag and the person couldn't get out.

We were in the middle of laughing when his girlfriend called, checking to see where the coach was. She heard him laughing and wanted to know why he would be doing such a thing on the coach. He told her that he was leaving her and running off with a girl he had just met from the US and could give him his green card.

At this, his girlfriend commanded him to hand me the phone. He did. His girlfriend then started telling me that I should be careful because he likes children. I laughed and handed the phone back. When he heard what she said, he said, "Don't worry I am not Michael Jackson."

The rest of the coach ride was equally pleasant. We chatted and sweated a great deal together. Delightful!


While standing in line to check in at Heathrow Airport I stood behind a man who was going to Vancouver. He was dressed in a sort of "zoot suit" from the 90's. He wore a black hat, pink tie, white shirt, black jacket with pink lines, black trousers, pink socks, and black shoes. He told me that he had a mentally disturbed wife who was accusing him of stealing and was very emotionally damaging. I wondered if he wasn't the one who was mentally troubled. For awhile he kept going on about the problems with his wife. I eventually stopped talking to/with him. (The line was an hour long.)
The man behind me then started a conversation with me. I found that he used to be a professor at Cambridge and that he was back from Australia to visit his former students who are now professors at Cambridge.

His accent was lovely.
A posh Southern English accent.


He told me that he had practically traveled all around the world. He then said that he had yet to be to South America, Eastern Europe, or Africa. The question that then arose in my mind was, what part of the world HAD he traveled to?!!

Another amazing little bit was that he spent 300 pounds on the 5 star hotel he stayed in in London for the night! He was telling me that the quality for the price was getting a bit better in London, but still not as good as what you could get in other places. I thought, "You don't want to know how much I paid for my hostel last night!"
(32 pounds for two nights...a shared girls dorm. YES!)

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

Evidence [Internet Encyclopedia of Philosophy]

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Oh my goodness. My brain is about to explode...I think, literally.
I also went to the page about logic and types of arguments.
This seems to be a good resource, but one to be used with caution.
I have struggled with doubt before. At this moment I am not and so, I pray as I read.
I pray the Lord will use this study so I may use it while speaking/interacting with others.
Knowledge only puffs up; love edifies.

Design Arguments for the Existence of God [Internet Encyclopedia of Philosophy]

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Collision: Quotes (Second)

Hitchens:
“Truth is not relative, but we cannot find it.
Truth is not relative, but honesty and kindness are best.”
(Isn’t that a truth statement? How do you know what “honesty” and “kindness” are? How do you conclude they are “best”? What is “best”?)

On statements he receives about his writing, “If I travel several blocks and do not hear complements, I start to get very sulky.” Haha!

On Protestants: “They came to do good, and ended up doing well.” Hahaha

On who will read the book: “These are the sort of people who buy the ‘Left Behind’ series, aren’t they? So that means they can’t be reading for pleasure. OR instruction.” (hahahahahahahaha)

On seeing someone who says they have just risen from the dead, “I would look at him quite narrowly…”
Wilson’s reply, “…if you had been with the guy for three years and he told you this would happen…I hope that you would look at him more than just squinty-eyed.” (haha!)

I loved the ending conversation they have in the car. Wilson appears to be dead-dog tired, while Hitchens seems to be gaining his second wind. Wilson tries to stay engaged (and awake) while Hitchens explains to him that if only one religious person were left on the earth, he wouldn’t try to convince them to leave behind their erroneous ways. He would let them stay religious. Very curious. I would have liked to see the incredulous look on Dawkins’s face! What joy would he find in keeping one religious person operational? Would this be done out of kindness? pity? to show-off his power?

Hitchens never knew that the "Good Samaritan" parable was culturally shocking.
Woe to those who teach fluffy Sunday school lessons thinking that little boys and girls (and/or adults) cannot comprehend!

I LOVED the footage of when they would discuss things after a debate. Wilson did such a better job of explaining and speaking during these one-on-one chats. I was thrilled to see that BOTH gentlemen listened intently to one another. So interesting to observe that when debating/discussing neither one would look at each other in the eyes. They don’t have time to take in the other one’s facial expressions! They are sifting through the other one's words while they are sifting through their own. Each man was processing and thinking. Neither of them took this lightly.

I think it can be noted that Hitchens finds this more of an amusement and Wilson finds this to be a deep responsibility to souls; perhaps he found his greatest burden of responsibility to the soul of Christopher Hitchens.
(What other well-studied Christian can say that the Lord allowed him to spend three whole days with Christopher Hitchens?! What other well-studied Christian could DO what Wilson did in the manner of a “regular guy” as Wilson did it? Out of all the teachers my church’s culture listens to – could one of them could stand as Wilson did? I think that’s slightly disenchanting.)

Wilson:
I love how he made fun of (within reason) Puritans, Protestants, the United States, himself and Christopher.

I appreciated how he went into pubs and taverns to formally debate and even went to the pubs and taverns to discuss topics after their formal debate. (I’m just glad he wasn’t “prissy”. He was relating to the man on his own terms WITHOUT stepping away from the truth. This is the BEST example the Church has seen and all must watch Collision for that very reason.)

WHAT does Wilson believe about end times??

I was surprised to hear some foul language come from his lips, but I think it was appropriate in making a point. (It actually helped to gain their attention and to show them that, according to the Atheist premise; it does NOT matter if the Amalekites died. They ARE taking on Christian standards when they protest the killing of the Amalekites.) I do find it humorous that the editors chose to highlight it with such great efforts.

Wilson did lose the Amalekite battle every time, however. The problem is that he will lose it every time. I am not sure there is a way for a Christian to win it in a setting such as this because you must take too much time to explain the background theology of God’s holiness, His patience, His justice, our obedience, etc. I will give it to Wilson that he may have gained a point in this argument (particularly at Martin’s Tavern) when he used the “No God; _______ happens” line. He proved right there that there is NO standard for right or wrong in the atheist premise and so it does NOT matter that the Amalekites died.

A ridiculous statement that came from Wilson (I cringed when he said it)came in the “bonus features.” Wilson was stating why atheists should watch the movie.
(I paraphrase)
“There is Christian argument yet to be engaged by the ‘sophomoric’ arguments of the atheists.”
I would agree to a point. Some arguments are sophomoric, but the REASON they haven’t engaged it is because Christian laymen are at the junior high level of argumentation! (I speak for myself.)
They have not read good literature, and they do not know good logic.
But to say that atheist arguments are at the sophomoric level when I just watched a movie in which Wilson himself didn't win every argument?
To say that atheist arguments are at the sophomoric level when (many) of his constituents are far behind?
I didn’t think that was an appropriate statement. Maybe he said it to be purposely offensive, thereby trying to influence many to watch out of rage.

Watching this video has given me a bit of motivation to study how to structure arguments and how to debate properly. I must read more, study more, speak more, and PRAY more.

(What can wash away our sins? Nothing but the blood of Jesus through the regeneration of the Holy Spirit by the predestination of God.)
Not by the power of our words, but by the will of God; therefore, we must PRAY.

Collision: Reviewed (First)

Last night I watched “Collision” for the first (and second) time. I enjoyed it immensely! I wrote two pages of notes per viewing, in reflection I have written about eight more. I cried once, danced to the soundtrack, and laughed multiple times.

Truth be told, I was not amazed at the way in which Doug Wilson carried his arguments. I was not astounded with any wins or losses on either side. What struck me as the most important factor in watching this film was to witness Doug Wilson intellectually engaging with Christopher Hitchens in a "life-on-life" scenario.

Wilson seemed to have engaged in these conversations with Hitchens in order to "be all things to all men that some might be saved." And he did this excellently. I – now – greatly admire and respect Doug Wilson. (Before, I neither cared for him nor disliked him. I thought nothing of him. Now I respect him, greatly.)

All Christians must watch this in order to see that we CANNOT fall away from the truth!
Be separate!
KNOW the Bible!
Study theology!
Study philosophy!
Study politics!
Study history!
Enjoy literature!
Enjoy art, theatre, music!
Go OUT AMONG THE PEOPLE!!!
Have discussions!

It is not our duty to SAVE the souls, but to PREACH so they might HEAR.

The problem with Christians:

When the people who have the knowledge argue, they argue as if they are fighting and could save the soul through the argument.
[I liken it to giving someone a scalpel and telling them about the procedures and then pulling them into the O.R. to perform the open-heart surgery. It’s not going to go well. It’s the same with the people in the church. People have the scalpel (God’s Word), they have heard how they should use it, they have heard that they are the only ones with this truth and need to use it, and then they go to use it and all they are doing is cutting the person up because they have not heard or seen or practiced actually using it to turn the person to health.]

When the people want to make the non-believers feel better, they change the doctrine of the Scriptures. (I would say this is up there in the #1 stumbling blocks for evolutionists, etc. Don’t be inclusive! The Bible is NOT inclusive! R.C. Sproul notes that the church has become, “Embedded in proud mediocrity.” What will happen then, folks?! Jesus will SPEW us out of His mouth! Nice is not better.)

When people tout the Bible as the truth, and then they don’t live life accordingly. (HYPOCRITES!)

If you are going to say it
: LIVE IT!
If you are going to discuss it: do it with POWER, with SHARPNESS and APTITUDE, but do it in LOVE. Do it as you are living LIFE. Do it as a natural part of your relationship and interaction with the unsaved community. LOVE THEM!!!!!
If you want to engage them in their own world: make sure you are clinging to the word of God. Make sure that you have a strong fellowship within your church body. Make sure that you know the Word! Know things that they actually do! Engage them in conversations about THEIR LIFE and actually be INTERESTED!!!!!!!!!!!!
If you want to make them feel better: bake them a cake; don’t change the Bible!

Hitchens said, “[Wilson] appears to really believe it…I know where I stand with him.” Hitchens noted that Wilson didn’t try to agree with him on anything for the sake of argument. Wilson declared them to be different because of the truths of God’s word. They were both arguing passionately, but with care and respect for one another.
Praise the Lord that Hitchens could respect the education and argumentation of a Christian!
Praise the Lord that Wilson stepped into such a RELATIONSHIP with Christopher Hitchens.
Praise the Lord that the truth has been declared and that Hitchens will have NO excuse when he stands before the seat of judgment.

Now, are we ready to do such a thing with our peers in our communities?

Thursday, September 30, 2010

Portrait of a Persecuted Girl

A young woman rests on the concrete floor.
Sunlight falls onto the pages before her.
The book itself does not attract much attention.
The book has been burnt, torn, beaten.
Its cover has been thrown away.
Pages are shred.
Sections of pages are missing.
She turns the page.
The smell of smoke fills her nostrils.
Soot leaves its mark on her fingertips.
She reads on.
“For though I am free from all men, I have made myself a slave to all, so that I may win more.”
Friends and relatives ridicule.
But she clings to the obedient One who Himself became a slave to all.
Friends and relatives hate.
But He has adopted her as His own.
She has lost all.
But through Him, she lives to shine His light on their darkness.
The concrete is cold.
The young woman remains.
She rests on the hope of her Book.

Saturday, September 25, 2010

Reminiscing about Students

Story #1
Our class had been experiencing much strife because of boys not following the rules while playing the Star Wars game at recess.
I wanted to encourage peace, patience, and discussing problems with one another in order to solve them. And so, we took some time to discuss the issues after one quite dramatic recess.

The plaintiff explained, "You guys make up the rules, but you don't follow them. You don't die when you say we have to die. You need to folllow the rules and play fair."

Defendant, "I have ALL the Star Wars movies. My DAD knows all about the Star Wars games. This guy only gets to watch them on TV or when we have a sleep over. I have the information. Do YOU have the information? Do YOU know the rules? Show me! Prove it! Do YOU have the information? No, no you don’t."

At this point I realized that the "talking it out" approach was too girly. I gave consequences, we set up rules, we moved on.


Story #2
To set the stage: we had been talking about missionaries for awhile and Mrs. Austin (who was a missionary with her husband and family in Indonesia) had just done a chapel on being missionaries. I think it was during phonics, perhaps history or even math, when suddenly the subject turned and connected to telling others about Jesus EVEN when we go into the grocery store.
I told them I try to go in with a smile on my face (I demonstrated) rather than a frown (I demonstrated) to show the people at the store Jesus, etc etc.

Suddenly a child called out, "so we should go out and preach the gospel to THEM, Miss Martin?!"

Whoa! To hear that phrase, "preach the gospel" come out of one of THEIR mouths -- it was crazy, and a little shocking. I hope he/they will mean it some day.


Story #3
It was snack time. The students were at their desks, enjoying their snack, little conversations were going around the classroom and I was listening to one lively boy tell a story.
Story Teller, "Guess what Miss Martin?!
Teacher, "Yes sir?"
Story Teller, "I once went fishing with my dad. I am a good fisherman, but I didn't catch a fish. Guess what I caught?!"
Teacher, "A shoe."
Story Teller, "NO! It was a SHARK!"
I raised my eyes at this statement. Students' heads turned to listen in on this conversation. His grin grew.
Teacher, "Really? A shark?! What did you do with him?"
Story Teller, "I took my dad's gun and BLAMP!, I blasted him away and he fell back into the water."

Story #4
It was the week after spring break. Before the break we had done a Passover meal. It was snack time and one student thought another student's snack looked mighty tasty.
"Milton, do you need snack?"
"Yes."
"Are you sure? Your mom usually packs you a snack."
"Oh yes. I am sure. Can I have some of Jenny's snack?"
"No, you can't have Jenny's snack. You can have matsa."
Milton chewed on this idea for a moment. He had tasted the matsa before.
"Ahh...I'll check to see if my mom packed me a snack."
The snack neglected boy then went to his cubby and returned with loads of food found in the depths of his lunchbox.
"Guess my mom DID pack me a snack."


Story #5 -- Miscellanious Quotes
Here are some of my favorite statements from the year.

"I am coloring the flesh. See, this is the flesh. Flesh!! FLESH!!!"

"I put the brown on there and now it's showing through the purple. Just incredible!"

"For crying out loud! I don't have to cut it out."
(Looking at me) "Do I have to cut it out?"

Student 1 kicked Josh's foot, "sorry."
Josh, "Oh no, it was all my fault."
"No, I was wrong."

Holding up the bottom half of a broken eraser, "Another victim of being bitten off by Luke; sad case."

"Just so you know, I use that very same gum for my gumball machine. I know because of the 'Double Bubble' crown on the top and the big circle."

"Whenever my mom gets a new vacuum my Grandma B and I get crayons and decorate the box however we want to and then I get to play in it for a really long time."

"I am going to a REAL salon to get my hair cut."
"Oh, a REAL salon? What's a fake salon?"
"Kid's Cuts. That's where I went before. That's a fake salon."
The next day -- with the new locks:
"I went to a real stylist and they had sinks to wash your hair and I got my hair washed there too! It was great!!"

"On Saturday we got to do the funnest thing -- we made a secret hideout with my friend's new oven box. We put it out by the woods and got to play in it. And even when it rained really hard -- it didn't even get wet!"

Boy: "Who is that? A Barbie?"
Girl: "It's TAYLOR SWIFT -- a TEENage singer."
Girl: "She lived on a tree farm and then she became a STAR." Speaking matter-of-factly, she then turned to allow the air to brush through her hair.

Crazy Kids...

This is a beloved story from last year. Enjoy.

The day was ending, a good chunk of free choice time and all of show-and-tell had been taken away because the students had been unable to control themselves inside and outside of class.

In light of these changes to the schedule, I brought out handwriting and history.

I know that I made history the most BORING subject of all time for those sad first graders, but I didn't quite realize to what extent I had done so.
Observe our conversation:

(I WISH I had had a recording device for this conversation!)


After removing "Show-and-Tell" from their Friday schedule, I pulled out the history book and told them, "Now that you have finished your handwriting, we have 5 minutes before we need to pack up. I will use this time to finish our thoughts on the adventurer Robert La Salle."
Groans proceeded to ooze out of the poor students' beings.

"NOO!!"

Cries of,
"Boring!"
"No more!"
"This is a bad end of the day!"
followed the groans.

Simultaneously, two girls called out two of the funniest comments I have ever received,
"The day is ending like the roar of a lion!"
"The day has ended with the graveyard."

Followed by:
"This day started out well, but you have smashed my hopes into pieces!"
"Just let us do some PROJECTS in history!" (he said as his hands pulled the skin away from the eyeball in great desperation and despair.)

I silenced the crowd to hear the comments I wanted to hear.

One girl continued her thought, "I thought today was going to be a great day! I woke up and was so excited because today is crazy hat and hair day, we have computers, free choice, AND show-and-tell, but then we started talking at computers and now you took them all away. You smashed my hopes into little tiny pieces, like this."
At which point she held up her index finger and thumb pressed together in order to indicate the length to which I smashed her hopes to pieces.

The crowd cried out,
"That's right! This day has ended in the grave!"
"This day has ended like death!"
"I wish I had never been born!"
"I just want to die."

I asked, "All because of history?!" (Was I really making it that horrible for them?!)

To the declarations of death, I did reply with a firm, "No, you do NOT say such things!"
One student then changed his response, "No, Miss Martin, I don't want to really die, I just want to be in heaven with the Lord rather than here." (Manipulation, right there.)

Once again, I silenced the crowd to hear the next comment.
Student, "The day has ended like a roaring lion."
Teacher, "What does that mean?"
Student, "It starts out so good and then it doesn't end very well."

To these comments I asked them whose responsibility it was to not talk, to do their work, to obey Mrs. Young, Mrs. Williams, Miss Martin, etc, etc. They acknowledged that this was their responsibility.

Suddenly, a charismatic and authoritative student raised his hand and stood up to speak,
"Come on guys, can't we choose to have good days? Can't we try to have a day like this?"

To illustrate his point, he strode over to the HOW I ACT chart and began to take off all the letters people had been given that day. (It was SO humorous -- and yet foolish of me to let him continue. He really was in control at that point. ALL eyes were on him. ALL ears were listening to him. ALL bodies could be motivated by him. They could form a rebellious union. Despite my better judgment, I was intrigued and so let him continue his INSPIRATIONAL speech.)

"Can't we try for a day like this -(pointing to the HOW I ACT board)- where there are no letters?! Can we have our parents come to us with smiling faces" (and he smiled a Chesire Cat smile) "instead of coming to us like this?" (and he frowned).
"Couldn't we let them sleep with smiling faces?" (and he closed his eyes with his smile.)
"We need to try for one day when we won't see this board with letters on it!"

As the crowd began to catch the idea with an energetic agreement, his fervor increased.

"Yes, we need to have a day without letters and then we will have Miss Martin put HER name right there! And then WE will give HER letters!!"

As cries of joy errupted from the crowd, I collected myself to interrupt the revolutionary's message.
"No," I began with great sobriety, "we need authority. I listen to Mr. Lugg and he has placed me as your authority. You cannot give me letters. You must obey me."

Wihout physically acknowledging my words, the student changed the direction of his motivational address.

"We need to have a goal for no letters in one day so we can take ALL these letters off and then," his intesity began to grow, "throw the HOW I ACT board...IN TO...the...GARBAGE!"

My classroom could contain themselves no longer. This student had just expressed their unspoken hope. They began to clap and cheer.

"Yeah!"
"Yeah!"

I suddenly realized I could no longer allow my curiousity to be my controling desire. "Okay, sir, take your seat. We need rules. We will not get rid of the board. These are the rules in our classroom. If you were able to go a WHOLE day with NO letters, we could have a party in celebration of no letters, but we must keep the board."

"A recess day all day long?!"
"Play all day! Play all day!" the chant began.

Oops. The motivational speaker didn't QUITE inspire them to be silent.

I signaled for silence to squash the riotous mass.
I then reminded them that that is how they get all their letters -- too much noise; not enough self-control.
hahahahaha

As we started our "end of the day" routine, the students began to calm themselves, and the motivational speaker sat a little higher in his seat. He had succeeded.
And I --while chuckling to myself-- praised the Lord that it was the end of the day and concluded that it may be best to reign in one's curiosity.