Will You Pray?!

All right, guys...
I haven't wanted to make an announcement because
1) What if it falls through? (They don't want me.)
OR
2) What if comes to an end? (I decide not to go with them.)

But I have now come to this point and (though I don't know how many of you actually read this,) I need prayer and insight and wisdom.

Are you willing to provide one, some, or all of those?

Here's the situation for which I need you to pray and give insight and wisdom:
I applied to teach at an international school in China.

Whoohoo, whoohoo!! (Correct.)

BUT!

I am struggling to make a decision. There are seven steps in the application process. I am in the middle of the fourth. I have a phone conversation (interview?) with one of the administrators tomorrow.

Why am I struggling to commit to a decision?

Because that's what I do.
My parents would like to rename me, "Inde Cisive Martin."

Also, because what if I am too loud to be in China?
What if I have no one to laugh with?!

I won't be able to read their street signs.
How will I be able to talk with people in the marketplace?

They only have kindergarten teaching positions open. Will I be okay with that young of a class?
Am I a good enough teacher?
What if I stink really horribly as a teacher over there?

I have never had China on my list of places to work in...travel to, sure. Their culture and history is AMAZING and so COOL! There are many things I would like to see and experience there, but should I commit to living there for two years?

What about developing friendships and ministries here?

What about my place as a Christian at Starbucks in Ohio, USA?

What about leaving my sisters behind?
They will grow up SO much in two years!
I have already left them behind for five years, now two more?
Some could be married by the time I return!!! --- (Though unlikely...more likely to be "dating".)

As I write these concerns out...they seem slightly silly...and I kind of wrote them in a manner that would communicate such an emotion...but they are also serious.

Am I just chasing something that I should forget?
Should I wait until I can go to India or Uganda?
What about my ministry at the new church and Starbucks? Opportunities to talk about Jesus!!!

People are important. I don't want to just abandon them.

Am I being foolish?

Which perspective is foolish?

Does the Lord really care which one I choose? No. He knows what I will choose. He's planned it. I'm just not sure which one I should choose.
"Many are the plans in a man's heart, but the Lord directs his steps." Indeed. (Proverbs 16: something)

I don't want to be wishy-washy. I don't want to be indecisive. I want to choose and stick with it.