Doesn't it annoy you when you're scanning through radio stations, searching for some good tunes, and you find yourself--very unexpectedly--grooving to a commercial jingle? It, infact, sickens me. It means the advertisement has almost succeeded in fooling me and shows the depravity of my musical tastes.
Well, reader who does not actually exist in the realm of reality, I have been released from my depression (for now and by God's grace.) He is so awesome! I find it horrendously horrible that I can find many words to describe my pains and complaints, but where are my words when I am joyous and exuberant in the Lord? Perhaps my joy is inexpressible whereas sorrow is only as good as the words it brings to my mind. Maybe in my rage and frustration I become my best author. That stinks.
The Lord overwhelmed me the other night with the beauty of His holiness and majesty. I fell asleep on the couch downstairs. I awoke around 2:30am and decided to take a look at the stars. The neighbors' lights (we have 2 neighbors in close distance to us) were off, our lights were off, and the stars had overtaken the sky. I have seen the stars before. I have searched for the Big Dipper, the Little Dipper, the Milky Way, the North Star before, but at that moment I was overwhelmed by how magnificent the Lord is. He created the heavens and all the stars. He has named every ONE of them. I realized how selfish and stupid I had been. I had been discontent in the circumstances the GOD of the CREATION had led me toward. What am I that I have complained before the Lord of Hosts? Who am I to suggest plans for me life?
He created me, I walked away from Him, He purchased me and owns my life through the wage of His blood. What have I done for Him? Nothing. What can I do for Him? I can do nothing except yield the whole of my desires and the whole of my being to Him and His will.
Praise the Lord in the beauty of holiness! Praise the Lord that He will run after us and change our hearts! I can and will never be able to change my heart, but He can and will have to many times after this.
I love the Lord.
Day dreaming about life's possibilities is not bad, but being consumed by the dreams is deadly. It steals away your heavenly focus and the joy of your spirit. Focus on the Lord and serve Him only! Submit to God, resist the devil, and He will flee from you. Lust eventually gives birth to sin that will overtake your life. Give glory to the Lord who knows the inside and outside of your being. He knows me better than I know myself. He has prepared me for HIS specific purpose. I might not see the purpose of my life now, but I trust in the Lord, that He has found purpose in it and that, as I follow Him; He will be well pleased with His limping, but eager servant.
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