Words from a North Korean

I copied these words from a video on www.persecution.com/newsletter. If I am disobeying copyright laws, I don't mean to be. Go there and watch the video yourself. I didn't copy them all. There are other videos there that are profitable as well, but I wanted to look at my soul in light of this man's example. Maybe you would like to join me?


"Then Jesus found me. Christ's love has completely changed me. [...] and now I risk my life as one of the prayer members, preaching His name to those around me."

Really?! Do I believe that? Do I see that? HAS Christ's love COMPLETELY changed me? Yes it has. Do I live like it? Do I BREATHE it and MEDITATE on it? Do I believe it so much that I tell others? That I live through ALL things with joy and praises for Him, my love?

"Risk my life" -- do I? Do I even risk my COMFORT??
"As one of the PRAYER MEMBERS" -- I love that identity he has given to himself in the Body of Christ. I do not meet that position.
"PREACHING His name." -- I am so puzzled as to what that means. I do preach it in my classroom. But what about to the parents? What about to the small group? What about to the people I see passing me on the road, at the grocery store, at Starbucks, etc.??? They may not be on the side of the road and STARVING (as they are in North Korea and else where), but they are going to HELL.


"Your gift of food has strengthed me and I will use that strength to preach that Christ is our Savior."

AHH! I have SO much food. Am I eating so much that I am getting fatter? Am I eating enough and then using that strength to "preach Christ as Savior"? I use that energy for my own gain. I use food for myself. Disgust and excessive. How thankful is he and how thankful am I? With much blessing must ABOUND thanksgiving.

"Without Christ, life is not worth living.
This is why we will continue to risk our lives to preach His name."

Again, I question this reality in my mind. How do I live it out?!
I would (truly) say, YES SO TRUE! I hate thinking about life without Him -- without the guidance and comfort of the Holy Spirit; without His strength, without the hope of heaven.
BUT! Do I live dependent on Him? Do I live for His purposes alone? Do I focus my mind and hopes on HIM?
No, so often I just want to live "MY" life MY way with Him as a comfort.
That is not the Christian life. That is not loving God with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength. That is being rebellious and disobedient. That is being a pagan.

"As you continue to strengthen our church, we will do our part to use that strength to further Christ's love for the North Korean people."

What am I doing to strengthen other parts of the Body of Christ?
What am I doing WITH the strength I have received for the lost, wearied, saved souls around me? --More often, I am spending it on myself.

"I appreciate you and want to thank you so much."

Thank us FOR WHAT?! We may supply food and resources, perhaps some will provide prayer support, but how are we even WORTHY to be thanked in light of the way our lives are lived when we have SUCH comforts and delights?! (I speak of the majority, not of the minority who are worthy of thanks.)

"For the future of this country I will persevere until His will is accomplished and His love has triumphed. I wish all of you good health, dear supporters."

He is concerned for his COUNTRY. Am I? --I just give them over to God's sovereignty. "Whatever will be, will be." And I live in a democracy.

"until His will is accomplished" -- He is living in NORTH KOREA and he recognizes this as God's will without any bitterness or complaints (at this moment, in this letter, of course he is a real human being. I am sure he has days of being confused and sorrowful).
Am I chasing doggedly after beating my body to be disciplined enough to obey UNTIL God's will is accomplished?
(Not even thinking about "finding God's will for my life," but obeying with what He has given NOW until He moves me on to other things -- like His millenial reign or my death and union with Him.)

"until...His love has triumphed" -- WOW! Let me focus on that. Let me be a part of that battle. Let His LOVE TRIUMPH in my soul, in my fellow laborers' souls, in this country, and in the world. May the heavenly hosts and powers in the heavenlies see this and give glory to Jesus; the Lamb who is WORTHY!

"I wish all of you good health, dear supporters."

Oh yes, my friend, we have good health. We have doctors. We have food. We have medicine. We have blankets. We have band-aids. We have barf-buckets. We do have pains. We do have hurts. But we have the opportunity to comfort those pains.
A sincere wish for health that is a delight, but we take it so much for granted (until we get sick).

What are we doing with our good health?

I am always saying that I rarely get sick. So what am I doing with this healthy body?! Am I training myself to be disciplined and diligent so I can be free to serve God as He would call and command? Am I actually a soldier who does not distract herself with things from this world?
Yeah right. I rebel against discipline.